I’m at my cousin’s now, they just put the baby to bed. It’s a bit weird being here, thought I would feel better, but feeling a bit lonely in amongst the noise. I don’t know, maybe it’s sinking in about not going to work anymore. What do I do now. But I guess that is what this month is for, to sort my head out. Met some really nice people at Mattel, and they are now my friends, not work colleagues. It can only be a positive. But why do I feel all achy inside?